Since I have a mild case of OCD and always tend to pick my face when I breakout, I decided to distract myself with blogging every time I get the urge to pick. This is day 1. Wish me luck! :)
Is your ass jealous of the shit that comes out of your mouth?
Bullshit, Bullshit, Bullshit. And unnecessary high hopes.
Honestly, I don’t know who to be angry with: them or myself. Them for making promises they knew they could not keep. Or myself for believing them.
I wish I could just build this huge ass fucking barrier that doesn’t let any bullshit through. I hate myself for being so vulnerable and hoping that what they promise will happen but deep down I know it won’t, therefore I set myself up time after time.
The worst is hearing “We’re trying” and making my feel like shit for asking for too much. But in reality I don’t see them putting money away each month to save up for a car.
They go to work everyday and are busy and I don’t think they realize how insane, depressed and anti-social I have become sitting home all day. Realisticly I can’t walk anywhere because we don’t live in a big city where everything is walking distance. Plus this time of the year, it is too hot. And when its not too hot, it’s raining.
On top of that we do have two other cars that sit in the driveway. One just needs some fixing and the other one is stick. Which I have asked many times if they can teach how to drive it but they have not got around to it.
I feel like I have wasted months and months. Sitting and rotting away in this room.
I am so angry with them lately its hard to even have a conversation with them and I have been easily irritated with every little thing. It’s driving me crazy. FML
How does one become selfish? Are they born that way- it’s hereditary? Or is it acquired over the years? I just don’t get how some people can be so selfish…
I’m so disappointed with my life right now and the worst part is that I’m taking out my anger on all the wrong people.
I would love to live here for just six months. But ofcourse I’d be satisfied to be there for only a day, or even an hour!
(via rosyblooms)
I honestly can’t remember…
The last time I was actually happy or excited. There are times when I get excited but that plan never works out. Which in turn causes me to be scared to even get my hopes up about anything anymore. My life has become so stagnant and nothing phases me anymore. And it’s taking a huge toll on me.
